Emotions

This week has been a hard one. My thoughts and feelings have been all over the place and I still don't feel like I am back to solid ground. Long and the short of it I had routine x- rays done this week and a day later they called to say that they saw something in my lung and they wanted to get it off to a radiologist- and quick. Needless to say I burst in to tears thinking I can't take another hardship right now. It was a LONG 24 hours but I am okay and it is nothing to be worried about. Something that I may have to deal with later in life but for now- it is benign and nothing.

Is it selfish to ask for something really good right now? Is it selfish to ask for God to just rain down a blessing on me? Is it too much to ask that a dream would come true and that I could honestly not be able to contain my joy? I feel so selfish asking for it and to be gut wrentching honest...I don't have a lot of hope in it. But I want to ask anyway...